One of the most difficult things I did this previous week, had to be the snippets of my haunted past I shared with friends. The two women are kind and generous. They love God and seek to follow Jesus Christ. So I thought, "Hey, they'll understand and not judge me for my mistakes".
It all started innocently enough. The three of us spoke of churches and the loss of love in the lives of many followers of Jesus Christ. We challenged one another to live contrary. To love Christ first, and serve others in that love. Then I laid my bombshell on the floor (sorry, you're not trustworthy enough to tell:). One friend laughed and told me she wasn't surprised then gave me a hug. Another didn't say much. She didn't look at me the same, she looked confused and unsure.
I left sad. I didn't want to lose a friend over a few mistakes in my past. After all I still make bad decisions. Then God whispered in my ear. You cannot stop others from judging you. You know your faith in Jesus Christ has brought freedom and forgiveness from those sins. Find your fulfillment, satisfaction and completeness in Me; for I AM your all-in-all. Keep living in the light and telling the truth. Then you may find the judgment of others doesn't hurt so much.
When we realize just how "wrong" and "sinful" we have been and still can be, our perception as to the wrongs of others--changes. A mind given to Jesus Christ doesn't see black and white, it sees hope and forgiveness. A heart overflowing with the Spirit of God doesn't turn away in shame, it hugs and holds in grace and love.
I don't blame my friends for their reactions, I would be shocked myself. I may have even reacted worse. But no matter if they talk to me again (they already have) God will sustain me. He is my rock and my fortress. My refuge in times of need.
Hey, He is The Rock, not just for me--for all. Seek Him and see for yourself.
